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September 19, 2009

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It was thirteen years ago today that I was seriously considering suicide. To summarize what led up to that: As expressed in " Mwahmwahmwah, Wah Wah Mwah ," I have been deaf in my left ear and hard of hearing in my right -- since birth. Homeopaths (and I) believe it is due to my birth trauma, which I have explained in detail in previous posts.  As a HIP (hearing-impaired person), society has been quite unkind. People are impatient and don’t want to take the time to make sure they have my attention before speaking to me. They don’t like having to repeat everything and don't like having to use good diction. I can’t hear conversations at big gatherings or in restaurants. I’ve been mocked, ridiculed, laughed at, and talked about. I am ostracized and excluded. Teachers, supervisors, professors, friends, and even family members have thought very little of me. With just a couple of exceptions, employers think I’m dumb and incapable. It is extremely isolating.  I mentioned

Well, That Explains It

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All previous posts regarding the consequences of my birth trauma have been mostly physiological. This post is going to be about the results of some neuropsychological testing I had done in November of 2018. I took them voluntarily to find out if my brain was causing me not to sleep, but discovered something entirely different.  As I’ve mentioned before in some of my other posts, I experienced a major head trauma at birth, so I was baptized and expected to die. As explained to me, my face was asymmetrical, and I was born deaf in my left ear and hard of hearing in my right. Other symptoms made their appearances at certain stages of my life, but, except for homeopaths, no medical professional will acknowledge direct cause and effect. No allopathic doctor has validated the trauma and made connections to the many problems I still experience today. I believe that, in addition to all the physical problems, the trauma also affected my learning abilities, which began to appear around high schoo

Yep, Uh-huh! -- Part Four

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Ah! The last of a four-part blog post. If you haven't read the first three, please do so. The links are as follows: “ Yep, Uh-huh! -- Part One ” “ Yep, Uh-huh! -- Part Two ” “ Yep, Uh-huh! -- Part Three ” And now, the last and final Part Four! Just as a reminder, all bolding is mine. Also, Monty and Steve are one and the same. In chapter 18, pages 235-6, Ken talks about the months leading up to Monty’s last game in the NHL. He doesn’t specifically state a year, but I’m fairly certain the dates mentioned are in the year 2012. He states that on January 18th [2012], after Monty had been hit in the head, he began to feel forgetful, emotional and “out of it.” In addition to having problems with sleep, he also complained of “mild diffuse generalized head pain.”  Zanna : Forgetful and emotional? Yep. The all-too-familiar “out of it” feeling? Uh-huh. And that “mild diffuse generalized head pain”? Yep, that's been a not-too-friendly acquaintance of mine for a long time. From page 236: